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I Shall Be With You

The photographer called again. “Just checking in. Are you okay?”

He had been calling everyday for the past week, leaving the same message: “It’s terrible. Just terrible.” I answered today, figuring that if he hadn’t caught his error by now, he never would.

“Are you sure you have the right number?”

“I’m sure. How are you holding up?”

“Um. Excuse me?”

“And this close to the wedding,” he continued to himself. “I’ll return your deposit. You’re dealing with enough.”

“We got married in December of last year.”

He paused: “I don’t think so…” His voice trailed off into confusion.

“I’m positive. You took our photos. My favorite one is on my desk.” Her head on my shoulder, my hand creeping up her dress; we looked like models in a perfume advertisement. The me in the picture stared back at me. Was he as confused as I was?

“Look, K,” the photographer whined. “It was on the news.”

I hung up and read on the internet about my wife’s death. I read, too, about our imminent vows.

I looked back at our picture. The me in the photo looked upset now, his hand continuing it ascent up my wife’s wedding dress.

 


The Medium of Immobilization

Fatness doesn’t photograph well. That’s what I told her when she asked to be my muse. She shied from my gaze after that, hiding herself under blankets and layers of clothes. I walked in on her when she was in the bathroom doing something naked in front of the mirror. She screamed at me. That was in the summer.

She fucked somebody while I was away, somebody who liked fat women. I didn’t care. I fucked a skinny woman while I was away. She cared. She screamed at me. That was in the fall.

In the winter she approached me, wanting to be my muse again. Take your clothes off. I hadn’t bothered to look at her in months; her body–barely a body at all now–both horrified and aroused me. Let me get my camera. She fucked somebody again, recently. I cared this time. I hadn’t fucked anybody since the last time I did that, but that wasn’t why I cared.

In the spring she died of starvation. I took one last photo before having her buried.