Monthly Archives: September 2014

When the Body is No Longer Marked

Thus he woke to find that the woman’s name he gleefully got tattooed on his arm was now a different woman’s name. (I love you, he had said gazing into her eyes as the needle pierced his skin. He grimaced. But not because he loved her.)

Did you do this? He woke her up. It was of course impossible to alter something as permanent as a tattoo. But she was understanding as she absorbed his accusation. I didn’t. She rubbed her eyes and tamed her hair.

He studied the name. Then he kicked her out, proclaiming undying love for the woman whose name now inexplicably graced his arm.

That night he went to a karaoke bar. What’s your name he asked a lot of women. Then he went home.

Several weeks later he was at a steak house when a woman touched his arm saying that’s my name. She was fat, but it was probably a life lesson he told himself. He invited her to sit down. They talked. He found her pleasant but she was still fat. So when she politely excused herself “for a moment” he grabbed a steak knife and began digging at his tattoo.


Teach Me to Grieve and Conspire

K was convinced that she was the one hurting him during the night, that she was the one leaving knives in his body while he slept.

“She’s going to kill me,” he said to a friend once, refusing to elaborate.

She didn’t kill him. But one day she woke to find K dead, his head thoroughly severed from his body and covered in lipstick. She sighed. You men, you have no self control.

K had gone to the Isle of Women again.

He never told her of his dreamscape philandering. But he didn’t need to. Every night he went to the Isle of Women and every night from within her own dreamworld she watched him go.

The police told her he died by his own hand. Which would make since: those marks on his body he attributed to her were also self inflicted. One night she woke to find him pummeling his own face, shouting remorseful things about “the nature of men.” She never brought it up.

So she  believed the police. She also kinda believed he killed himself out of guilt. But she also kinda believed he killed himself so he could stay on the Isle of Women forever.


C’est Cella

We drink wine as the world ends around us.

“And to all the destruction in men,” she says, raising her glass. “And to all the corruption in my head,” I rejoin, touching my glass to hers.

Another explosion. Another scream in the distance. It’s only a matter of time before those screams ostensibly become ours, which is why tonight we drink the good wine, the wine she is supposed to be saving for a special occasion–a promotion, accolade.

As rock falls from the sky I think back to when I first met her.

———-

She had been smoking on her veranda and talking to the night sky. She had been doing it every night for months. Every night I would watch her from the darkness of my own veranda, imagining a conversation with a dead lover or maybe a confrontation with God.

“What are you doing,” I asked once, emerging from the darkness.

“I’m talking to Orion.” She remained focused on the stars. “I’m trying to convince him to take off his belt.”

She started sweet talking him when she was a teenager, she said. And men can only resist for so long.

———-

“I guess you were right,” I say.

 

 


The Subsequent Blossoming Forth

For my birthday, my girlfriend gave me something she made. Last year it was something she constructed from forks and spoons.

This year it was a flower pot, out of which a hand was growing. I recognized the hand; I had bought it for her to hang jewelry from.

“You don’t have to water this kind of plant.” She laughed.

I watered it everyday after she left for work. It didn’t take long before the hand grew a wrist.

Under some pretense, I took my potted hand from her apartment, claiming it would look good in my house, which I hardly called home at all these days.

There I watered it dutifully, spoke to it, played it pleasant music. The wrist grew a slender arm, which grew a graceful shoulder.

A woman! I grew excited and pulled on the arm. A beautiful woman emerged from the soil. Our eyes met. We embraced. Then she pulled me back into the soil.

Later that day my girlfriend came by. She didn’t find me. But she found a flower pot with two hands in it. Presuming I had made it for her, she took it back to her apartment. Her birthday is tomorrow.