Monthly Archives: September 2015

Blame the Other

When K told me that he was going to kill himself if I stole his girlfriend, I didn’t believe him. I didn’t think that I could steal his girlfriend.

K was wealthy and educated, and what girl would refuse such a man? I was the opposite in every respect; had I found myself on the Titanic or an equal vessel I would have had to steal my way aboard. I began flirting with her simply out of spite, as if to insinuate to K that although he could have whatever he wanted, I could take it from him with ease (rich men have large egos, which is a huge turnoff).

I didn’t enjoy fucking her. Indeed, I courted her out of spite. And she, the caged bird of a wealthy birdist, allowed me to court her for the same reason.

She and I were upstairs when K’s telegram arrived, announcing his imminent demise—“…by the time you read this I will be dead.”

“Shit. K’s dead,” I said after reading the telegram. She, still in my bed, feigned sadness.

“I guess you’ll have to marry me now.” She coiled my blanket snuggly around her.

K, from somewhere safe, probably smiled.


I Guess I’ll Read the Obituaries

“Nervous much? Or do you always never look a girl in the eye?”

Her grammar—not necessarily incorrect—bugged me. It reminded me of the way a graduate student would address some pressing social concern.

“Sorry, habit I guess.” I attempted to elaborate on a study some sociologist conducted that proves men are poor at maintaining eye contact.

She rolled her eyes. “Here,” she said, grabbing the expensive vodka from my bar cart without asking. I had upset her. Moments earlier she had gone on a rant about how women shouldn’t wear underwear when they wear tight dresses. I, naturally, hadn’t minded the conversation, though I did wonder about sanitation.

But now she sat before me with her head cocked way back like you do when you catch the rain in your mouth. She filled her mouth with vodka and waited for me to drink from it.

I didn’t want to, having the day prior watch a documentary about birds feeding their young. I made a joke about liking “my martinis dirty.”

She displayed two fingers, reached under her dress, and then used them to stir the vodka in her mouth.

She tried to meet my gaze. I looked away.