Monthly Archives: November 2015

The Loss of National Culture

For Christmas I wanted a prostitute. “A good one, for an hour, no more,” I promised Dad.

 

On Christmas day I bounded toward the tree expecting a card with cash, and an encouraging note from Dad: “Money is power, son,” or something. Even an actual prostitute with bows covering her private areas. Instead, all I got was a piggy bank. “Save up and buy one for yourself,” Dad said, patting me on the shoulder.

 

As I dropped my only quarter into the pig’s backside, I heard the pig mock my lack of masculinity. I stole $50 from K. He sold drugs to the other kids at school, so I didn’t feel bad. I offered a girl in my Japanese class $50 to have sex with me. A poor, trashy sort, she could hardly refuse. “Money is power,” I exclaimed when I was through with her, tossing a dirty $50 bill on the bed.

 

Two weeks later I approached her again, having nicked another $50 from K. “It’s $100 now,” she replied.

 

When I was finished with her, I grumbled something about money being power, but now I was less sure. “See you next week,” she asked, an unfamiliar confidence in her voice.


Exhibitionism Itself

My girlfriend was the most beautiful woman in history. So when she was blown up by insurgents, the world’s museums went to extremes to collect her parts, divvy them up, and house them behind expensive glass in expansive rooms.

 

I didn’t realize this at first. “You know,” said K, recently returned from abroad, “I saw your girlfriend’s torso at a museum in Paris.” He handed me a replica, a souvenir he purchased in the gift shop. I had read of her death – “Most Beautiful Woman in History Killed by Terrorists” – and lamented. But my thoughts shifted as soon as K handed me her mini torso. I punched him in the face and stole it.

 

I traveled the word, collecting her replica body parts from museum gift shops throughout the world. In Tokyo I acquired her tongue; in Tel Aviv I acquired her womb. And so on.

 

After a year of travel I had all of her body parts, inside and out. Standing a mere four inches, she was as exquisite as I remembered. I carried her to my bed and we had sex. Unfortunately my erect penis broke her in half. I lamented my girlfriend’s death for the second time.

 


So Many Scattered Signs

Climbing the fire escape, I thought about all the times I’ve been rejected: elementary school kickball teams, high school dances, college orgies, post-college job interviews. The higher I climbed—certain that she was in the apartment on the top floor and not “catching happy hour with a colleague”—the lower into despair I sank. The sun was descending and my shadow lagged further and further behind, as though it didn’t want to accompany me on my quest for vindication.

The knife in my pocket suddenly felt heavy.

Once, a girl broke my heart and I slashed her tires. As a peace offering I gave her some pears that I found in the middle of the highway, the result of a crashed fruit truck. I told her they came from the mall.

I heard her laughter through the door. Peering between the blinds I saw tangled bodies. Overcome with rage, I charged the door.

“K,” she screamed, “what are you doing here?”

I looked for my shadow, which had decided to wait outside. I readied my knife but paused when I realized she was in bed with a woman.

Arousal overtook me and my shadow shook its head from the doorway.

 


An Affirmation That Affirms Nothing

“Why are you here,” I asked in an accusatory tone.

 

“I loved him,” she moaned, extending a finger toward the coffin. She had dirt under her fingernail. “We were going to marry next August.”

 

“See that brunette in front? That’s his wife. So, why are you here?” I was calm.

 

“I don’t know.” Her eyes were red. She grabbed the lapels of her miniskirtsuit and pulled them tightly to her chest. “Do I have to leave?”

 

“Well, no. But you’ve been at every funeral for the past month. So I’m curious.” The authority with which I spoke prevented her from realizing that I was guilty of the same.

 

“I just prefer the dead.” She glared at me.

 

I was overcome with passion.

 

“So do I,” I gasped, grasping her hand. It was like ice. She recoiled but I refused to let go. “It’s okay. I understand.” She was obviously dead and found comfort in those like her. I, however, was just a deviant with a fetish for dead bodies. “Give me a chance,” I implored. “I won’t let you down.”

 

I took the flower she had tucked behind her ear (symbolizing life, perhaps) and sank its stem into my neck.


My Way Back to Sea

I spent much of her insurance money repairing her body (no easy feat after the body dies), filling bullet holes, sewing lacerations, reattaching her head. The embalmer thought I wanted an open casket (he made her beautiful), not knowing that there would be no funeral.

I cashed in the rest of her policy to have her body encased in ice and stored in my newly-purchased freezer. “You said I could,” I muttered the first time I laid her frozen body on the bed and, with my newly-purchased icepick, chiseled out her sex organs.

She was at the height of physical perfection when she was murdered. And thus in preserving her body, I preserved her sexual attractiveness. Every Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday I wheeled her out of the freezer, liberated the parts I needed, performed the acts I needed to perform, and wheeled her back in.

Yesterday she escaped from her block of ice. I placed her body on the bed but received a phone call. My mom. “K! Why don’t you call anymore?!”

When I went back to the bedroom she was gone. So was the icepick.

If you’re reading this, whoever you are, help! There may still be time.