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Exhaustion of Content by Form

“Did you know people sell these?” K took a tablet from the orangish vial on the counter and held it between two fingers the way you inspect a small bug. “They call it ‘hillbilly heroin.'”

“Yeah, but I need those,” I said. “You know–for pain.”

K wasn’t listening. “One of these can go for, like, $20.”

I rolled my eyes: “Can’t you find something else to sell illegally?”

“No,” he retorted. He snatched my perscription and left.

I sank into despair, knowing that my doctor would never buy the story I needed to sell him.

……….

K came to my door a few days later, smiling widely.

“Can  I have my medicine back now?” I asked.

“I sold them. We need more.”

“That’s not going to happen. There are rules to guard against this exact thing.”

“Yes it is.” Then I noticed the hammer in his hand.

“Wait,” I screamed. I pleaded. But K insisted it was the only way. I backed away. Then he pulled a handful of money from his pocket, thrusting it into my hands. “This is your half.”

He raised the hammer.

I closed my eyes and envisioned prostitutes and Rolexes. I don’t remember what happened after that.


a L’orange

“She was my heroin,” I said gazing into the pond. “I was addicted,” I continued the metaphor, as I continued gazing into the pond. A few ducks nodded in tandem. Most swam away, bored, no doubt, with the same story told by every guy who sits alone on a bench by a pond.

One duck spoke. “Tell me more,” it said, and by the by, we got to know each other. I invited the duck over for dinner. It accepted my invitation, probably out of sympathy.

……

I told K about my unexpected  friendship. “What should I serve for dinner,” I asked him.

“Duck,” K replied feigning seriousness. We  laughed in that way you laugh about things like cannibalism.

I served pasta instead. The duck was a gracious guest. We ate mostly in silence, each unsure how to proceed. “You know,” the duck finally said, “I thought you invited me over so you could eat me.”

We laughed in the way K and I laughed earlier. “I’m a vegetarian,” I explained. Then I attacked and killed it.

……

I called her for the first time in a long time. “I made you duck,” I whispered to the voice on the other end.