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Exhaustion of Content by Form

“Did you know people sell these?” K took a tablet from the orangish vial on the counter and held it between two fingers the way you inspect a small bug. “They call it ‘hillbilly heroin.'”

“Yeah, but I need those,” I said. “You know–for pain.”

K wasn’t listening. “One of these can go for, like, $20.”

I rolled my eyes: “Can’t you find something else to sell illegally?”

“No,” he retorted. He snatched my perscription and left.

I sank into despair, knowing that my doctor would never buy the story I needed to sell him.

……….

K came to my door a few days later, smiling widely.

“Can  I have my medicine back now?” I asked.

“I sold them. We need more.”

“That’s not going to happen. There are rules to guard against this exact thing.”

“Yes it is.” Then I noticed the hammer in his hand.

“Wait,” I screamed. I pleaded. But K insisted it was the only way. I backed away. Then he pulled a handful of money from his pocket, thrusting it into my hands. “This is your half.”

He raised the hammer.

I closed my eyes and envisioned prostitutes and Rolexes. I don’t remember what happened after that.


But the Attacks Continue

She said she wanted only to swim with the jellyfish. “It’ll hurt,” I said, “a lot.”

We gazed out at the ocean.

“I know,” she replied, sharply.

She had this thing about being hurt during sex–they always do at first–and was ready to make the jump to daily life.

“I’m a masochist,” she had said the first time we had sex. She didn’t understand that masochism is a complex theory of living. And I didn’t feel like explaining it to her. So I did as she asked and broke her fingers with a hammer before fucking her.

But as she eyed the ocean I became concerned. “Masochism is contractual,” I pleaded, suddenly feeling as though I were discouraging her from having an orgy with numerous men who weren’t me. “I know when to stop. Those creatures don’t.”

She sighed. “Jesus, K. Give it a rest. I know what I’m doing.” She stood and untied her bathing suit. Without looking back, she ran toward the ocean and dived in. I haven’t seen her since.

I wonder about her from time to time: did she drown, did she find her jellyfish?

I ignore rumors of a jellyfish woman with mangled fingers.